what happend to me ......

sometimes i tell myself why why am i 14 without a boyfriend why am i 14 and i've never been kissed before is it compulsory to look like every other girl in my school isn't okay just to be myselfe and not to to fake for one day anyway we're all gonna die and i don't wanna people to remember me just  as another girl it's true that i'm not enjoying all my rights but i think that i have the right to be myself to do things that make me really happy to not try that hard to make a boy fall for me the real me !!
anyway .........
i'm arfaoui ghofrane a 14 years old student , i lost my father whene i were 4 years old : he past away beacause of smoking !!!
now i live with my mother and my sister in our house that we builted on top of our grand_mother's house in the middle  of the no where !!! basecly my life changed last year my mother is an actress and beacause she works in tunis we deciced to move to another house so we rented a house near my unt and ofcourse that means another school !!! to be honest i were really happy and  excited for this whol new other life ! first day was awful as i remember i were really shoked by the Bullying i saw there smoking Corruption Prostitution...... and so many other things !!!!
whene i finaly started to make friends something Unexpected happend i fell in love with a boy i couldn't believe how fast i fell for him but as allways he didn't pay me attention and i kept crying for days beacause of him i'm feeling stupid just to blog about it but back thene i really had something for him and what made it even worste thids girl came to school and between all the class she chose mine O.M.G. and he just loved her and beacause i loved him she became my new B.F.F. yeeeeeeeeeeey!!! isn't that cool?!!
now i'm alone  i came back to our house to my old friends trying to change myself to become another person but on my way a brave confident person a person doesn't need a boy to feel good about myself i wanna become me againe i wanna introduce my Inside to the world but first to my Inside!!!!